randomness

I am procrastinating. yet again. it just feels sooooo... good?

this week i only have one shift; or they would call it 'jaga 1'.(thank you minggu 1 peeps for cming in! huhuh..sha, joe and sarah..heee) but am still about 2 status short.

dr.Sonny will only tolerate my procrastination till Monday i think. so what am i still typing this?

maybe the excitement of having my own internet line in the comfort of my own home is still getting to me.

okay. ten more minutes. and i'm gonna get back to work. really. i am.





ini adalah nasi goreng chicken roll . it was not so yummy. huhuh.

i still want that banana nut muffin..pfft. and the apple pie ala' mode..

Snip Snip!

I did the most deliberate thing this evening after dinas shift was over.

I said "hooray, obama won!" a day too late. haha. and...

I got a hair-cut.

An expensive cut that i've been avoiding for over a year (yet keep telling my friend, ahem.. hehe..that i was going to get it done), all in 30 minutes-plus the hair mask and treatment of course ;)

no idea why i did it. just suddenly felt like chopping it all off.

and now i feel young and weightless.

hee hee. oh no. i'm cracking myself up.


Aren't those tell-tale signs of something?

uh-oh.

Psychotic and non-psychotic

We took the MMPI test yesterday, after registering with the residents of the psychiatric departments.

MMPI stands for the Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory. To see our unconcious mind whether we ourselves have mental disorders or not. funny.

Day One
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+ reporting for duty
+ introduction to the department by residents
+ instructions for case handling and assignments with supervisor and personal resident guide.
(i got the so called angelic Dr.Sonny Lisal, Sp.KJ)
+ on call schedule given out and lucky me. straight away tonight was my shift to 'jaga'

afternoon shift: 2pm-9pm
night shift: 9pm-7am
office hours: 7.30am-2pm

As excited as i was to be the first to jaga malam, i was kind of scared. and intimidated by the howls of such psychotic patients in my care.
thankfully only 2 patients required me to do a 3 hour follow up.
One patient was a B20 patient with TB and dyspnea. She was the one we all had to worry about.

i ended up only sleeping between 3-5 am. my first sleepless night inside the co-ass chamber. we accepted 3 patients in the middle of the night with complaints of rage and hallucinations.

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a lot of people say working in the psych department can drive u crazy. i used to think that wasn't true. but 2 days in and i do think i'm no different than some of them that are sleeping in these wards that i roam. Okay, so i don't think i'm GOD..or is paranoid that an FBI agent is gonna kill me..but u know what i mean.

F r e e d o m

one down. many more to go.

i read the other blogs. flipped through the many photos.
sighed at every vacation recounted, sniffed at every tragedy. then i realized,
i myself have not written anything here to give anyone else a picture of the short
3 weeks i spent in the radiology department.

Trust me. everyone has stories to tell.

the first week was a breezy one with many a doctors leading and guiding us new travelers of the radiology hall. We were given a log book, thick empty pages for us to fill with everything and anything we see while we cruise.

How we identify and diagnose a patient without even meeting the patient.(except the ones that come for an MRI a CT, or ultrasound and the occasional HSG)

But technically, all we need is knowledge, a bit of imagination and super-sized eagle eyes to spot the blurry details of a thorax photo.

Exams were a whirlwind of blank looks and possible answers - there were 2 exams. An oral exam on our research paper and such..and the final photo-reading exam. Thankfully i made it through both on friday and jumping straight into psychiatry on monday.

hmm..vague, aren't i? next entry maybe. :D cheers

Photo

adrenaline pumping, heart racing, knees go weak and sweat starts to trickle down the sides of my forehead.

first days always make me nervous. first time for anything; anything at all. Whether it is the first day of school, first exam paper, firsts..

today was no exception. it was more or less what we expected.

but only 8 hours and my legs are weak from the standing. and the rushing about following doctors around.

more to come. more to do. this is only the beginning of it all. phew...

deep breaths. deep breaths.

Back to Reality

i am leaving for Mkassar today. in 12 hours i would have to check in for that dreaded flight.

yep. and I'm still high strung on the 'holiday syndrome'

bad news is, my sis just got admitted to the hospital a few hours ago. Her asthma acting up again. I feel bad for still having to leave while she's being monitored; but there is nothing much i can do. i leave her my best wishes and prayers to be well again.

shoes. bags. skirts. some bits and pieces of furniture, my cam and computer gadgets. sighs. all strewn across the floor waiting for me to pick them up and stuff em' into my bag. wait; which bag? dilemma. books, books and the endless mountain of books i thought i could carry. 15kgs...who am i kidding. air asia should make it 15 kg per bag, they already are charging each bag we bring..haiyah.

will miss home. my dearly beloved siblings. teman-teman ku juge.

back to reality.

Eid Mubarak

Just tagging in to wish everyone a Selamat hari Raya or Happy Eid Mubarak.

Here i would like to extend my most sincere apologies for any wrongdoings, either intentionally or by accident that may or may NOT have hurt you. I am human and not perfect in anyway, so mistakes or human errors are bound to happen.:)
let's start over with a clean slate eh? have a good holiday everyone, cheers.

p/s: i shall put up photos soon. heehee. being with the family is always a plus.