Sunday, 13 September 2009
I officially finished my 1st year of clinical education. two days ago.
And Alhamdulillah, everything has been almost smooth, a few bumps but no brakes were involved.
Sure, i wished i got straight A's but really, its the experience and skill that matters right?
Dermatology exam was nerve-wrecking on friday.
I was pretty sure i answered it all well, but of-course, the 3 examiners hid and masked their expressions trying to confuse you and not aide you in any way.
I just want to go home now :)
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
I am a loner
Mostly. Not always. Often these days. But always have been.
I get these questions often when I hang out with friends, be it old or new ones.
Even people I just met.
"So, you're single? Not seeing anyone?"
I reply with a shake of the head and my infamous smile. Trying to escape the incoming array of questions.
"Dated? I mean, last relationship?..Oh. never?"
Again, I just smile. I knew it was coming.
If only I could answer that myself.
And then; usually to make me feel less like a loser and more embarrassed for asking in the first place, the questioner would then list down all my 'positively good qualities'
"But you're pretty…awesome!"
Thank you very much.
I feel so much better now.
Am i? really? Awesome? Gee.
I have been single for all 23 of my years now. Of course you can't count the first 12..that'd be just wrong. J
And I am happy. So why should it matter?
And no. despite what some people want to believe, I am NOT a Lesbian.
I love my fair share of male specimens. You know, the incredibly hot Hollywood ones. Aside from some old real-life crushes.
It just so happens that luck is not on my side. Yet.
Always the good ones are taken.
And I am not one to hope or break up a relationship or be the spare "just-in-case" chicks like some guys do hope.
I just want someone for me.
Maybe I'm picky or choosy or lazy?
But I think that's only said for those who actually do have options. Innit?
Besides, even though my friends say sometimes I can be a bit "macho" and that I'm always independent,
I still want someone to take care of me.
And besides, I'm still too young to be tied up, I think.
There's still the whole WORLD to be seen ;)
I guess I should be thankful nobody's asking about being married yet. Hehe. Phew. Sorry sis.